Yes, it's about... that impulse. I can't say how good his word is to anyone else, but I trust his promises to me. That wasn't his first. And... he's never broken one. And he never denies me anything.
I--
[How to even start addressing that last part. She rubs her face.]
I can't read his mind. I wish I could. Then I guess I'd know for sure what I am to him. I know he says he loves me. And... I know he gets jealous... over me. Mostly of Senji, I guess.
I... go back and forth a lot... on whether I really believe he can love someone. I usually believe him, for a lot of reasons. But sometimes I wonder.
But. Even if it isn't love, it's definitely something.
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Date: 2010-12-27 02:50 pm (UTC)Yes, it's about... that impulse. I can't say how good his word is to anyone else, but I trust his promises to me. That wasn't his first. And... he's never broken one. And he never denies me anything.
I--
[How to even start addressing that last part. She rubs her face.]
I can't read his mind. I wish I could. Then I guess I'd know for sure what I am to him. I know he says he loves me. And... I know he gets jealous... over me. Mostly of Senji, I guess.
I... go back and forth a lot... on whether I really believe he can love someone. I usually believe him, for a lot of reasons. But sometimes I wonder.
But. Even if it isn't love, it's definitely something.
That's... all I can say for sure.